Sitting at the alumni table, I laughed and talked with my teacher and sister around me, and he was opposite me and asked each other about the recent situation. There are not too many words and greetings between us. After all, we don't know each other. I'm just his Younger, and the teacher elder sister is the only one who knows each other.
That day, after the bride poured wine for each of her relatives and friends, the banquet ended soon. I remember that our roommates told us not to forget to pack when we went out. So I asked the waiter for a packed bag, and he didn't leave yet. I politely asked when to leave, but he didn't say much, so he took the bag in my hand and packed it for us.
At that time, I was a little depressed in my heart. Why did this person do this? I didn't ask people if they agreed. Although he was good-looking, he was too rude.
I didn't say much. I took the food in my bag, thanked him and planned to go to the gate.
He followed in a hurry, talking and laughing with his friends in the elevator. And stomped on me, disgusted that my Mandarin was not standard.
Khan, it's none of your business. At that time, my heart was full of Ma Benteng. After the elevator door opened, I went directly in the opposite direction to him, which was a bit of anger. I thought in my heart, never meet such a person again. Although you are my brother, I respect you, but that doesn't mean you can be so rude to me.
But the world is always so small. From that day on, he is like the ghost, and he can be seen in the study room and classroom. Isn't he an off-campus person? Didn't you graduate for two years? How can the school just let people outside the school in? Well, school security really needs to be strengthened.
Not only that, but when it's almost noon, he will pretend to suddenly see me and ask me to be an intern here. What a coincidence! I also looked through my book, especially the preface page, but I didn't pay attention to it. I just had a little slander in my heart. Coincidentally, your sister, I came first, okay? I still have a grudge against you for stepping on me the other day.
But I have to maintain polite language on the surface, yes, what a coincidence! Later, he found the excuse of eating time and said to eat together.
In this way, the same thing is repeated every day, much the same. Gradually, I feel that he is not as bad as I thought. He will help you with your books and queue up to cook for you. You just need to look after each other's books.
In this way, we gradually got used to this kind of thing. He was determined to get into the city's tax bureau, so he studied hard for those two months. He said, in fact, when a person chooses his future, there will always be a kind of motivation to push you forward and work hard. That's what he is. If he decides one thing, he will try his best to get it. At that time, I just thought about his life feelings, so I didn't think much.
In this way, we gradually became familiar with each other, and we exchanged contact information with each other. Later, he really got what he wanted. Two months later, he successfully entered the tax bureau. He said that although he was only a clerk, he believed that through his own efforts, he would be able to rise. At that moment, his efforts also deeply infected me. Looking back at my freshman and sophomore years, I was confused about my goals, lazy in my studies, and muddled along. It's really time to plan for the future. This strengthened my mind, and my impression of him was much better.
He decided to hold a celebration party, invited his relatives and friends, and invited me to go with him.
On the night of the party, he drove to pick me up, which startled me. It turned out that his family was so rich. It turned out that the leading enterprise in H city was his family's industry, and his family was also the richest in H city. At that moment, I suddenly felt that the gap between us was so big.
Looking at his car, I didn't dare to get on it. I was afraid of the strange eyes of my classmates. Later, I called my best friend and took her with me to give myself courage.
The celebration banquet was held in the box of KTV, which was full of his good friends, both men and women. At the moment we came in, his friends all booed and pulled us to sit on the sofa, and then made room for him.
I am unnatural, a group of strange faces, but they are so enthusiastic. It's so noisy in the box that I can't hear what others are saying clearly. One of them seems to be "Sister-in-law, when did you meet?" My face is stupid and my face is red. What sister-in-law, we are just brothers and sisters.
I look at his gossip friend, and sure enough, what kind of people have what kind of friends, preconceived! If you don't want to answer, you just brush his face and ignore it directly.
He gave me a look, and I bowed my head. When I slightly raised my head to look at him doubtfully, he looked up and drank a draught beer. Then he approached me, his head slowly leaned over, and even the gas he exhaled was so clear in his ear that my heart couldn't help jumping, my face was burning, and I wanted to escape.
I vaguely heard him say, I like you and I want to chase you! Boom, my mind went blank. What did he say? He said he liked me. How could it be? We only knew each other for two months, and at first he was so rude.
I thought to myself, it won't be a joke of the rich children. I smiled and looked back at him: Brother, it's very late tonight. My friends and I will go back to school first. Have fun! I grabbed my bag and pulled my friend to the door, looking like I was going to escape! She hasn't reacted yet, complaining about how she left so soon.
I don't explain, he and his friends had drunk and couldn't drive, so they sent us a taxi and told us to go back.
I couldn't sleep that night. I kept thinking about his sentence "I like you". I always thought it was impossible. I wanted money but no money, and I didn't have talent and my face value was not high.
Later, in order not to think too much, I directly ignored what he said. In the next six months, in addition to his busy work, he would take the weekend time to find various excuses to ask me out for dinner, but I refused. Yes, I don't want to get close to him, and I never thought I would like him, because we are people from different worlds, which I know very well.
I'm afraid, I'm afraid of his sugar-coated cannonball offensive, and I know my own weight, and I'm persistent in treating my feelings. To be precise, I won't put my feelings on someone in a different world from myself, and I'm afraid I'll be doomed in the end. So it is right not to take the first step. I convinced myself so much.
In fact, I also like him, like his faint smile, like a spring breeze, like a sunshine, shining directly into my heart. I like him to call me Younger, like his clumsy encounter, obviously so obvious, like him to make it clear that I can't get high marks, so I can't help admiring him; I like him to help me with my books and help me with my meals. It seems that this is only done between couples. It's a pity that I still do it naturally and don't know it.
Later, he sent a lot of messages, contacted me on QQ on time every day, and told me to remember to eat breakfast. Don't forget to order more food for lunch. Autumn is coming, and when the weather is cold, remember to wear clothes. Looking at these, I want to reply to the message and ask him not to care about me so much. It is impossible for us, but I feel a little uncomfortable in my heart.
So I didn't return any information to him, and he still sent it every day. Sometimes at the school gate, I want to have lunch with you, but I can't wait to escape. In fact, I was really scared. I was afraid that I couldn't control my feelings and agreed to associate with him.
I will also miss him in my heart. I think we were very happy when we were together in the study room. I can ask him many questions that I don't understand, and he is omnipotent, helping me analyze and giving me advice.
In this way, he insisted on his pursuit, and I insisted on my firmness. I always told myself that if I like it, I like it, and I don't have to be together. After all, our world is really different. I will say to myself, if you hold on a little longer, he will always give up. If he gives up, you don't have to be so nervous about him, for fear that he will get hurt and that you will continue to fall in love with him.
In this way, we have not regressed and compromised each other!
That morning, he sent a message saying that he was going on a business trip. He said that when he came back, he would definitely go to my classroom and take me out for dinner, and he would never let me escape again. There are entanglements and some happiness in my heart, and there are always some expectations in my heart.
Later, he was on a business trip for a week. During that week, I didn't send any more messages. I looked at my mobile phone and felt very lost, as if I had lost something. But I can't help laughing at myself. What do I care about? Maybe what he said before is just a joke. Maybe he has met another girl during his business trip. That girl is more suitable for him and worth pursuing.
That day, I was having dinner with my best friend in the dining hall. My best friend inadvertently said that a great event happened in our city recently. When the son of a wealthy businessman in H city returned to the city on a business trip, he collided with several cars on the expressway. Being sent to the hospital for rescue is ineffective and has passed away. It is said that when he was taken to the hospital, his mouth was still whispering that he was going back to date the girl he liked. He said, don't let her escape when she goes back.
Boom, my head is blank and my whole body is surrounded by fear. It's him. Is it him? I don't believe it, I don't believe it. I grabbed my best friend's cell phone, watched the news, and stared at the name and the sentence "I died."
My eyes seem to be covered by night, and the heavy water vapor in my eyes makes me unable to open them, and my heart hurts in chunks. How come... How is it possible? It was fine before. How is it possible? It hurts. I'm holding my heart and lying on my desk. I'm so sad, so sad. I don't know how I got back to the dormitory and hid under the covers. I only knew that I wanted to cry, and I didn't want others to know that I wanted to cry.
Didn't he say that he must come to the classroom to find me himself when he came back? Didn't he say he wouldn't let me escape? Why go back on our word? Don't go, okay? I won't stick to my resolution anymore, okay? I promise you, I promise you anything, even if you're just kidding me!
Will you come back? I have a lot to tell you. I want to tell you that I like you, too. I like you very much, but I'm just afraid. I'm afraid of getting emotional. I'm afraid I'll get hurt in the end. I want to be with you, too.
It hurts so much, you know, it hurts so much for the first time, my heart, it hurts so much for the first time? Do you know that?/You know what? Do you have the heart to make my heart hurt so much? Didn't you say you like me and want to chase me? Don't go, I promise you, don't leave me!
You know, until now, my world still can't eliminate your existence. How can you be so cruel?
If I had to do it again, I would say, I like you, too!
But if, after all, it's just if. .......