For many people, the hot summer will leave a mark on their lives.

Because the fate of many people has been frozen in the summer that belongs to them.

It's the annual college entrance examination again. My nose suddenly soured when I watched the candidates take the bus and go to the examination room to compete with fate.

Recalling the June that belongs to me, I am full of regret, farewell and longing for the future.

1

It's been many years since I took the college entrance examination, and I've changed from a client to a bystander.

at one time, I thought that at this age, many places in the world had my footprints, and I had become a well-informed person.

but in fact, I have never left the embrace of my motherland.

I have only been to a handful of places in our vast motherland.

The farthest trip from home was from Pudong Airport, with a short stay over the East China Sea for a few minutes.

once, I thought that at this age, I had my own house in a city I liked.

But in reality, I never left this N-line town where I grew up.

I have worked hard to get a set that has not yet been handed over. Counting the small apartment with several tens of flats, the loan is still 2 years away.

at one time, I thought that at this age, I had basically achieved financial freedom, so I didn't have to work hard or just do what I liked.

In reality, I'm still working in a job I don't like for a small salary, and I get angry every day.

at one time, I thought that by this age, all my friends had realized their ideals and lived a chic life. We can get together and travel at any time.

As a matter of fact, everyone is unhappy, and they are all busy for their chosen life path. Even in a small town, I can't see you once a year.

2

I used to think that I could live as long as I had an ideal.

now I understand that when you are too obsessed with your ideals, but you are not competent enough, your ideals will make your life worse than death.

I have lived with my ideal for many years, thinking that this is the only one. Cherish the present, don't regret it

until I have to face life, I found that the reality is the robbery that you can never escape.

when I choose my dream path, I find that I have no money, and I am not good enough to let others see my talent without money.

as we all know, money can't buy everything, but you really can't buy many things without money.

So when I pursue my dream with all my heart and blood, but my parents are unwilling to support me, I can only go back to my hometown with regret.

it's not impossible to realize your dream, but you need the right time, the right place and the right people, or the efforts that are different from ordinary people. The key is that your efforts may not have any results.

Some people say that life is a big gamble. If you bet, you should shake the dice well. Even if you do well, someone may cheat ...

Later, I gradually changed from an optimist to a pessimist.

I don't want to live, but I dare not die.

sometimes I think: I just take out a loan to travel, and I don't have to pay it back after I die.

Find the most beautiful place to kill yourself, or Maldives.

Later, I thought, why should such a beautiful place accept a resentful soul of mine?

But after a while, I thought, when I get old, can I pour a cup of tea and sit by the window in the sunset, with white hair and a kind face, sighing for the rest of my life.

I used to think about everything when I was healthy. If I didn't live well, I would commit suicide.

after I get sick, I pray to God every day to let me live for a few more years, even if it is a few more years.

I am entangled in various contradictions every day.

3

Later, I came into contact with mindfulness meditation. One of the viewpoints is that people can only live in the present forever.

Our minds are always contemplating the past and the future. What happened in the past and the future is actually the present at that time when it happened.

It's just that we never stop planning what hasn't arrived, regretting what has passed, and just don't make the present better.

In fact, only by grasping the present can you have a good future.

we all know the truth, but no one will carry it out.

As everyone knows, smoking is harmful to health, and it is clearly written on the cigarette box.

People who die of lung cancer from smoking are everywhere, which does not affect that some people have to smoke several packs every day.

we don't like pain, but we are all addicted.

It's more hateful than drugs, and it can't bring any happiness, but it doesn't affect that we are always obsessed with those painful things.

So Shakespeare said: Only tragedy is eternal, and only tragedy is perfect.

it can make people forget it, from birth to death, isn't it eternal?

Later, my friend told me: You should just think about things that will make you live a good life in the future.

For example, with money, you can solve many problems, so from today on, just think about things that can make you money.

actually, this is living in the present.

Because when you get rich, you will do whatever you want. This is the future, and you can't make money by thinking about it.

similarly, you still can't make money by thinking about the poor and hard-working days in the past.

you can only make money if you do something that can make money.

4

Life can't be repeated, and time can't be reserved.

no, when you want it to be fast, it will take out a little to help you store it and take it out when you want it to be slower.

in this world, nothing is fairer than time.

whether you are poor, sick, rich and healthy, everyone is the same, and you are more honest than any oath.

Nostalgia is an instinct of human beings, but excessive sentimentality should not be the original intention and result.

What we are sad about is a certain moment or period in the past, and we don't cherish the present.

now you don't cherish the present, and one day in the future, you will regret it as much as now.

that year, after the last exam, I walked home with my classmates, which was a long way.

We are thinking about the future, telling our ideal life in the future, and our eyes are bright.

nowadays, we have not lived as we once expected, and this is the destination of all sentient beings.

However, we can still try to live what we like.

as long as life doesn't end, we still have a chance to make a comeback.

even so, it is suspected of chicken soup for the soul.

However, the reality itself is cruel. If we don't rely on a little expectation, how can we spend the long life caused by the pain of subjective feelings?

for many people, life has no expectations, and they feel that life is beyond love.

Don't accuse those who live by hope of not paying attention to the present, because there are still many ordinary people in this world.

since we are ordinary people, we should treat life with an ordinary mind.

not too demanding, not too regretful, and taking the road at your feet is the best explanation for your expectations.