I never thought I would get a divorce myself. Even today, I can swear that I still love my wife. As long as she forgives me, I will live a good life with her. However, now my oath is worthless, because in the eyes of my wife, I am a man who is having an affair, and with my understanding of her, it is probably difficult for her to forgive me, because the most intolerable thing for her is cheating.

Indeed, if the level of extramarital affairs can be carefully divided, I am just unfaithful and not up to the level of extramarital affairs. I don't love others, but that nature is more specific than love.

Pajamas temptation

This disloyalty incident happened when I went to Huangshan for training. People are strange. Usually they work in one state and come out in another. Some new configurations will be born between men and women. Programmers who are usually dull have actually become very lively and have a close relationship with recognized beauty. When they play golf together, they teach and practice hand in hand, like a pair of men and women in love. Actually, one is married and the other is married.

I don't like this short-lived romance. I always thought I was a decent person, but this woman named Bud kept pestering me somehow.

Ya is from the administration department and is responsible for arranging our trip. I don't have much contact with her. To tell the truth, in the crowd, she is just a woman of medium beauty. She usually wears dark clothes without personality in the office, but when she comes out to touch the fresh air in the mountains in spring, it seems like a different person.

Silk floral shirts and white slim trousers look elegant and capable from the back, but their faces are peaceful and lack of facial features. It happened that she always likes to find me to affirm the change of China: "Teacher Qi, what do you think of the design of my shirt today?" Will it make my face yellow? "

what can I say? Naturally, you should praise a few words: "No, you look great."

You think this sentence ends the conversation, and she added, "It is. My skin sweats. The more I sweat, the whiter my skin becomes. I don't wear sunscreen in summer and never get sunburned. " My skin is whiter, just like a foreigner. "

To tell the truth, my wife and I seldom discuss these female topics, but in the eyes of others, even such personal topics can be discussed, just as I am particularly close to her.

When everyone was shopping together, she came to play the coquette again: "Teacher Qi, help me with this bag so that I can cut it?" It happened that I was empty-handed and talked. How can I refuse?

When I got back to the hotel, my hands were full of her things, so I had to send her back to her room. She was very enthusiastic and said, "I bought some fungus and chrysanthemums for your family. I'll take them out for you."

Seeing her rummaging through a lot of things, her chest suddenly came out and her privacy was revealed in secret. In the light of the hotel, it is really white. This time, I live in a room alone. I felt sick and hurried out, but she chased me out enthusiastically and insisted on giving me something. In this way, two people stopped in the corridor of the hotel, so I had to come back with what she gave me.

I was a little embarrassed to go back to my room. I don't know why I remembered the spring scenery of her neckline when I took a shower, which made me blush. After about two or three hours, late at night, I almost fell asleep watching TV, but she sent a text message: "Teacher Qi, I probably left my wallet with you, so it's not convenient to find it."

Auricularia auricula has her wallet in her bag. I texted her back and she said, "I'll get it."

A little embarrassed, I took my wallet to the door and planned to give it to her in the aisle. When the door opened, she had already hid in it.

She casually wears perfume and a knitted coat. When she came in, she took it off and threw it on the bed, wearing only a pajamas. At the critical moment, I realized that I was not Liu Xiahui, and then something happened to me.

Dong Chuang Shi fa

After that night, she and I suddenly faded, and she didn't come to me to ask for color. She goes shopping and gets together with a group of female colleagues, but occasionally she looks at me through the crowd. When I saw her, she avoided. She didn't come to see me again, and I was too scared to even have the courage to talk to her. More often, I think of the new house that has not paid off the loan, the children who are academically gifted at school, and the affectionate wife. It turns out that my life has always been so happy. Once it is lost, my life is completely meaningless. I regret what happened that night. I wish it was a dream.

I became very afraid to meet her. I was afraid that she would tell us anything, so when I returned to Shanghai, I broke out in a cold sweat when she texted me that she had something to discuss with me. I'm not afraid of your jokes. My first reaction was that she was pregnant. But she took me to the hotel room and said she missed me. Suppressing the fear for many days makes me feel that she has a special sense of intimacy, just like two accomplices in a crime. I told her that we all have families and we can't do this anymore. She smiled and said that she didn't intend to divorce me, and she wouldn't. She also said that as adults, we can naturally grasp the scale of this kind of thing.

This woman's boldness surprised me. Seeing that she is a normal woman at work, I didn't expect to be so open in private. I was frightened by her words, so I ran away.

Maybe she really saw through me. Although I went home, I thought of my wife again when I saw her wearing an old sweatshirt and pajamas. When she asked me out again, I went.

Every time I see her, I regret it, but every once in a while, I can't help but see her. After many times, my wife began to doubt and found out.

Heaven and hell

My wife is a tall and beautiful woman. She has always been confident in herself, so when she found out about my infidelity, she was heartbroken, especially when she saw Bud. This is a woman whose appearance and temperament are not as good as hers by social standards. She doesn't understand why I should do that with such a mediocre woman.

I don't blame my wife, but after having children, we became two roommates with no gender difference. She is tall and often wears my old sweatshirt as pajamas, and her underwear is bought casually in the supermarket. Occasionally buy her one or two lace underwear, which she has never worn. She said they are made of chemical fiber, which is airtight and not as healthy as cotton. When she was busy, she didn't wash her hair for several days. When you go to work, you put your hair up, and when you get home, you can just put it in a big clip.

From the time she was pregnant, she didn't wear makeup, let alone nail polish. It was bad for the fetus at first, and then it became a habit.

I can't say that she is a yellow-faced woman. She has a strong working ability and a high income. Although she has gained a little weight in recent years, she can still see the Peugeot of that year. Let's just say that her femininity has been deteriorating.

Bud, on the other hand, dresses himself up carefully every time he meets, emitting a faint fragrance, and sometimes painting beautiful flowers on his nails. Bud and I have a sense of unreality outside of life. So, I think I'm just tempted by appearances

I don't even love bud. I know nothing about her personality and hobbies. At least for me, we can't be regarded as having feelings, but after what we have done, my wife and I can't explain this relationship clearly.

Knowing my infidelity, my wife directly changed the lock at home and asked me to prepare a divorce agreement. She has always been very rigid in doing things, and there is no room for manoeuvre.

I don't even have a change of clothes, so I have to go to the mall to buy them and live in an express hotel near my work.

Now, I have no interest in analyzing the difference between old sweatshirts and silk pajamas. I have no interest in asking me out again. I hope to go back to my home and live my old life. If I hadn't longed for that immoral happiness, I wouldn't be in deep regret now.

I know that in the eyes of others, I am an unbearable person, and I did make a mistake. I don't know how my wife can forgive me.

Now, I have realized what it means to dream of hell for heaven. If I had resisted the temptation at the beginning, if I hadn't followed it for the second and third time, maybe I would still be very happy, but there is no "if" in this world. I'm really sorry that the family I worked so hard to build broke down. I want to use this angle to tell my wife that I was wrong, but I don't want a divorce. I still love you. I have told all my true thoughts and asked for your forgiveness. At least, let the children have a complete family, okay?