I was born in Chengdu. After graduating from health school, I worked as a nurse in a large hospital in Chengdu. At that time, my dad was still working as a deputy secretary in the street. In his opinion, I could definitely have a better job. My dad wanted to get me into the tax department, but I was not willing at all because I loved working as a nurse and worked for I didn’t talk to my dad about this for two months. My dad seems to be a good-natured person outside, but at home he has a very stubborn temper, and he can't stop himself from being aggrieved. In this regard, I am very similar to my dad. I have inherited his bad temper. You Don't look at my fair and elegant appearance, I have a bad temper. My mother is a real good person and often mediates for my father and me, but it is often thankless. The most tense time I had with my dad was over my relationship. My dad was so angry that he vomited blood.

The person I am dealing with is the youngest son of one of my patients. This patient of mine is an old patient. He is very nice and often praises my work. One time his youngest son came to see him. He was tall, tall and handsome. I couldn't take my eyes away from him. My patient later tried to play a joke on me, only to find that the joke came true. Later I remembered that it was really like acting in a movie, where a nurse falls in love and gets married to the patient's son. But it was my father’s firm opposition that played a decisive role, otherwise I wouldn’t have been so determined and wouldn’t have gotten married so quickly. At that time, I was considered a beauty in our place and was considered a beauty in everyone's eyes. It is said that a beauty needs to have a lot of romantic relationships to be worthy of the title of beauty, but I did it quite normally and let several people have a crush on me. The one chasing me can’t figure it out.

After I got married, I lived with my parents-in-law and I almost never went back to my parents’ home. Most of the time I meet my mother in shopping malls or restaurants. Although my mother has nothing to say about my husband, she just thinks that his family is too poor and is afraid that I will suffer hardship in the future. My mother’s theory is: A handsome man can’t earn a living, but the important thing is to have money in his wallet and be able to make money; a woman only has a few years of youth, and she will be dazzled by it all her life and not want to be happy. I don't object to my mother's theory, but I believe I'm right. I love my husband so deeply that I almost go crazy. I feel like I'm the happiest woman in the world.

When our daughter was two years old, my husband was transferred from his workplace. After much deliberation, he decided to leave Chengdu to work in Shenzhen. He said, wife, for the sake of the future, we have to separate temporarily. As long as I have a little improvement, I will come to pick you up and Lanlan. We didn't fall asleep the night we parted. We held each other tightly, for fear that if we let go, each other would disappear.

A year after my husband left, he came to pick up my daughter and me. Over the past year, he and I have been separated from each other, and we have been connected by phone calls and thoughts. Every time I call my husband, he will ask me if I have been bullied by anyone, and to pay attention to safety and watch out for perverts. As for me, there are so many beauties in Shenzhen, so you have to be careful. He said seriously, how could it be possible? It’s like being in my hometown. I’m so busy here. Is it possible? I believe it is impossible for my husband. My husband once told me that we had sex over the phone, and then I followed his instructions on the other end of the phone and listened to his sweet words, and it turned out to be like that. At first I wasn't used to it, and I laughed and scolded him as to whether some slut had passed it on to him, but gradually, after a few days without it, I started to feel uncomfortable. I think my husband is so nice and awesome!

When I arrived in Shenzhen, I did not look for a job. I worked as a "full-time housewife" and took my daughter with me in a small rented house. My husband already runs a small electronics processing factory with others. My husband is very busy. He leaves early and comes home late. Sometimes he is too busy to go home. Seeing him lose weight makes my heart hurt. I cooked delicious food for him in various ways, and tried my best to make him comfortable and happy while being gentle.

Until one day when our family of three were walking outside, we accidentally met an acquaintance of his. His acquaintance saw our mother and daughter and showed a very surprised and strange expression, although it was only the beginning. For a moment, but with a woman's intuition, I felt a terrible fact. I didn't say anything. It's strange to me now that even though I was in a state of turmoil, I acted calmly on the surface, like a secret agent. I found that my husband breathed a sigh of relief.

The next time, I really became a spy. As soon as my husband left, I started to get busy behind me. I swore that I would figure it out!

My husband is very slippery, and I realize that he is far from the same person he was back home. During the days when I started following him, he was very normal. I was also worried that he would find out that I was following him, but I later denied this because this was just a surefire way for my husband. He felt that I was suspicious of an acquaintance of his that day when I met him. This is to ensure that nothing is revealed. After two months of this, my husband thought he could rest assured. His true face was finally revealed, and my real pain also came!

The house was at the end of an alley, on the second floor. I put all my strength on my right hand to knock on the door. Soon the wooden door inside opened, and a woman in sexy clothes asked me angrily through the security door: "What's wrong? What's wrong with you? You are sick! Wake up! (Cantonese, crazy)"

I ignored her and shouted my husband's name loudly. I said get out of here. If you don't come out, I will call the police. When I called my husband's name, the woman's arrogance was like a fire being set on fire and going out.

My husband was exposed and opened the security door expressionlessly.

I rushed in. Although the house is not big, it has everything you need and is very warm. What was particularly eye-catching was that there was a large color photo hanging above the bed: My husband and this woman were hugging each other, smiling, and looking down on me with great happiness - I picked up a stool and threw it at her hard. It crackled and fell apart! This pair of dogs and men stared at each other with big eyes and small eyes, and they were at a loss. I then hit my husband in the face with a backhand. When I hit the stinky woman again, my hand was held tightly by my husband. I cried with dissatisfaction, and while crying, I cursed, "Okay, you are so talented!" You protect your wild woman! You-you-you son of a bitch!

As soon as I came out of the room, I felt like a deflated rubber ball. I walked helplessly on the street. Oh my God, what happened? Is this my husband?!

I took my daughter back to Chengdu. I left my daughter with her mother and rushed back to Shenzhen without stopping. I can't swallow that bad breath, I can't lose without a fight, I can't take advantage of that couple, I want to stay in Shenzhen, even if I die, I will die in Shenzhen!

When my husband saw me coming back, he was surprised and happy at the same time - he came over and hugged me, saying that he loved me no matter how much he loved me, and that he loved me the most, and that he and that woman were just a show-off, it was all in his head. He did the stupidest thing when he was drunk... I pushed him away, and he suddenly knelt in front of me and cried - this was the first time I saw him cry, and he cried so sadly!

I told him, how to forgive? Do you want me to give you a certificate for your messy behavior? You have the guts to hide it so tightly that the flag at home does not fall down, but the colorful flags flutter outside! Let me tell you, I'm not that easy to bully!

He swore that he had separated from that woman and that he would never dare to do it again!

I don’t believe him! Who can I trust? I don't believe anyone anymore!

I found a job as a nurse in a private clinic, which provided me with food and accommodation. The clinic is not big, so people can go there. One night when I was on duty, I went into the bathroom to urinate urgently. As soon as I unbuttoned my pants and squatted down, the bathroom door opened with a bang. I was startled. When I looked up, I saw Dr. Guo from the clinic, who was also the owner of the clinic. In front of me, he squinted his eyes as if he wanted to eat me. I was acting strangely, and not only was I not disgusted, I also felt an inexplicable excitement. I finished peeing under his gaze. I watched him take off his pants...

Dr. Guo and I were involved. I was surprised and ashamed of my bitch, but I was willing to do it. Small clinics are our battlefield everywhere. Although Dr. Guo is more than ten years older than me, he is very energetic in this field and has made many tricks. Sometimes I can't help but think of my husband. My husband is no match for Dr. Guo in this field. To be honest, I am really obsessed with Dr. Guo.

One night when I was not on duty, I suddenly felt uneasy in the dormitory. When I called Dr. Guo’s cell phone, it turned off. I quickly went downstairs and headed towards the clinic. The clinic was closed, and I had a premonition that something was going on. I calmly inserted the key into the lock, opened the door, and sure enough, the scene I imagined appeared in front of me - Dr. Guo and a new little girl who was a nurse were doing naked exercises together.

Dr. Guo asked me coldly what I was doing. I ignored him, I said I was here to get something, then I walked around pretending, then I closed the door and left. I am very calm, or I am as emotionless as a wooden person. Who am I with the surname Guo, my lover? My sex partner? Is he playing with me or am I playing with him?

Soon I left that treasure house. Like a dream, a nightmare? It seemed like nothing had happened, because Dr. Guo never looked for me again after leaving there, and I never thought of him. It wasn't until I drove past there half a year later that I realized that the clinic had disappeared, and a new building was being built in that location, and the building had already reached into the sky. I think of "Shenzhen speed" - buildings grow so fast here.

I did not go to my husband’s rental house after leaving the clinic. I had not contacted him for a long time and did not want to contact him. Sometimes I think viciously like a complete prostitute: If you do the first grade of junior high school, I will do the fifteenth grade! What a bastard!

I rented a peasant house in a village in the city. I already have some money on hand. I stayed in the farmer's room and slept for several days and nights. After getting enough sleep, I became obsessed with Internet cafes, and I also drank. I was drunk and dreaming.

When I was running out of money, I found a job as a medical guide in a beauty department. Maybe it's because I'm pretty, and just standing there is a good advertisement, so the beauty department's business suddenly improved a lot. The cosmetology department is contracted to others, and the owner of the contract is a woman in her forties. She has a kind face, speaks softly, and has a very good temperament. She comes to visit from time to time, and I can see in her eyes that she likes me.

Soon she invited me to dinner. When I realized that I was the only one invited, she smiled and said that the main thing was to talk. The two women talked happily. She told me that she and I had a good affinity, and it felt like we were reunited as good friends after a long separation. Although there was an age difference, it did not prevent us from being close friends and becoming friends forever.

One time we both drank a lot, and she said, Zhenzi, you have to tell the truth. You said you were alone in Shenzhen and your husband was not here, but I saw from your two big dark circles. It can be seen that your sex life is too frequent, too much, and it’s over. Can you tell me the truth?

I was surprised. During that time, I seemed to have a clue, and I went out to stay overnight with netizens one after another. I was silent for a long time, and then told her everything about my husband's betrayal, my affair with the doctor at the clinic, and my current one-night stands with netizens. When I talked about it, I started crying. I already regarded her as a He lost his eldest sister and his relatives.

After I finished speaking and crying, I noticed that her face was also full of tears. The only sounds in the entire private room were the two of us wiping away our tears.

I don’t know how much time passed before her voice floated faintly from across from me——

Little sister, you are completely wrong! How wrong and stupid! ——I'm not afraid that you will blame me for speaking frankly. Actually, actually - I have experienced the same thing as you. When I found out that my husband had cheated on me, I felt like the sky was falling. I was unwilling to accept it, so I fell into an extremely stupid revenge. I went crazy. It's incredible, I turned from a virtuous woman into a devil... Until one day, I saw an article about women, and I finally understood a truth: why women, as living individuals, have to depend on men. Survive? When you retaliate for a man's mistakes in so-called tit-for-tat, except that you can't live without a man and refuse to be independent and mature, what else can you explain? If something like that happens to your husband, there is one standard: if you still truly love him and still care about this family, you must forgive him, help him, and accept him - he is not a saint, so don't throw him away just because of one mistake." Beat him to death"; if you think he is too hateful, and this marriage has nothing to do with you except pain and sadness, then stand up and divorce him - when you get out of this "siege", you will definitely see an open space in front of you. . Remember, remember, our revenge! That kind of revenge is hurtful to us women, a different kind of hurt, a kind of hurt that anesthetizes and pushes women into the abyss! If a woman doesn't even have self-respect and self-love, will she be happy? Little sister, brake quickly! There's still time, there's still time!

We talked for a long time that night, and later she called her husband to pick us up. Her husband came after a while. Looking at them loving each other, who would have thought that their marriage was only a little bit broken? And her past was the same as mine - she turned into an incredible "demon"?

After she understood the truth, she immediately stepped back from the cliff. She deleted the phone messages of those pig friends and dog friends from her mobile phone, and eliminated them all from her mind. She forgave her husband, and at the same time saved her husband. After leaving her alone, their marriage restarted toward happiness. Soon, with the help of her husband, her personal career developed, and the beauty department she opened was quite successful...

I don’t know how long it has been since I separated from my husband, a year? Two years? Or half a lifetime? I just felt that it was so long that my mind went blank and I couldn't calculate the time. When I called my husband's cell phone, my hands shaking the buttons were shaking terribly. My husband recognized it was me, and there was excitement in his voice that he couldn't hide.

I completely woke up and stopped at the cliff. I have to save myself. I forgive my husband. I returned to the house my husband rented, and he greeted me with a smile. The table was filled with dishes he cooked, including spicy skewers, which I particularly loved... My husband has lost a lot of weight, and his face has lost a lot of weight. Wrinkles...

I opened my arms, I hugged my husband tightly, and we cried.

We cried for a long time.