1. My land dream.
After 20 15 lunar new year, I came to Aksu, Xinjiang to buy land and farm. At that time, I gave up my small business at home, took 70,000 yuan saved at home for several years, left my wife, children and parents, and went thousands of miles away alone to seek my dream of farming. I don't expect to make a fortune by farming, but I think I can make my family better by farming, because I think I am willing to make efforts and I can bear hardships.
After coming to Xinjiang, the yellow sand and dry and cold air all over the sky made me feel a little lost.
After seeing my cousin, I talked about the price and time limit of land transfer. An acre of land is 8000 yuan, and the right to use it is 30 years. I'm going to buy 20 acres of land, so I'll have a try first. Lao Biao and others say that the land here is vast and sparsely populated, and there is not enough time to cultivate 20 acres of land. ...
And in 30 years, it's extremely cheap, so I decided to buy 30 acres of land. Because it can be divided into stages, I paid 70 thousand for the first time. After paying the money, there is no money to eat.
After the land sale was handled, I was thinking about what to plant after I got the land. Other experienced relatives taught me to grow watermelons. After all, Aksu has fertile land, high yield and first-class fruits and vegetables.
At this time, because there is no money in hand, I am in a hurry to buy melons and fertilizers. I will ask my wife to borrow money from home, but the bank will not be willing to lend money without a formal job guarantee.
In desperation, I asked my wife to find my mother-in-law, who planted more than ten acres of land alone. Although it is difficult and she has saved a lot of money, it is difficult for her to talk and she doesn't want to borrow money from her parents. It is said that this is an agreement between their sisters. When we called that night, she was at her mother-in-law's house, and her wife was embarrassed to cry. Finally, her mother-in-law reluctantly lent us 30 thousand yuan.
The watermelon is ripe, and I'm finally full.
From irrigation, buying melon seedlings, planting melons, fertilizing, mulching, pulling out seedlings, weeding and so on. I can do it by myself and I will never hire workers. During that time, I simply built a hut, set up a pot in an open space, stayed at sunrise and sunset, boiled water when I was thirsty, and heated steamed bread when I was hungry. The only dish is Chili sauce, although the day is very bitter.
In June, finally, my melon is ripe, my child. The melons on the ground are really a bumper harvest and the price is gratifying.
Under the contact of my cousin, my first car sold very smoothly, and the efforts of these months finally paid off.
That night, I bought myself a plate of pork head and called home to let my wife and parents fly to Aksu from their hometown in Henan. In fact, I wanted my family to move here several years ago, but today I finally have the courage to say so.
In mid-July, parents, wife and children came to Aksu. My melon had sold for 80 thousand yuan at that time, and some melon merchants were ready to buy it. It can be said that I am on the boat at this time.
3. The weather is unpredictable.
In early August, I drove my second-hand pickup truck to the county seat to buy fertilizer for planting Chinese cabbage in the next season. I hummed a ditty and looked forward to our future.
The weather is unpredictable. At a small intersection, a tricycle suddenly rushed over. I braked suddenly and ran straight into it, causing one death and one injury to the old couple.
Fortunately, my minivan bought compulsory insurance, and my cousin also asked someone to find the traffic police of the traffic police team. I managed to get in touch with them. I paid 80 thousand yuan. As for where the money went, I don't know. It seems that if you don't pay it, you will go to jail. At that time, I was completely ignorant, and I did whatever others asked me to do.
A few days later, I paid 50,000 yuan for the funeral expenses of the other family. During this period, my wife and I borrowed all our relatives' money, and even some relatives were afraid of us. I clearly remember my wife and her sister crying on the phone and saying, "It's no use talking. We can't force him to death! "
Her sister also works part-time and lends it to us again and again, which is the first time I feel so embarrassed.
Car accident compensation and court decision have been dragging on for almost a year. The process is extremely complicated, and you can't leave Aksu during this period.
A year later, I was sentenced to full responsibility, three years in prison, and the compensation was paid by the insurance company.
20 16, after the judgment came down, the dust finally settled for myself. During this period, we owed 250,000 yuan for various expenses and land investment.
4. People are doomed to misfortune.
Since the verdict, I have to report to the police station at least once a week. If I catch the May Day holiday, I will stay there for eight hours every day, even if I am busy in other places. This is what worries me most. How hard it is for a farmer not to work.
At this time, at home in the field, my wife is alone, probably too tired. One day, her uterus bled heavily and she was in a coma for ten hours. I spent a day in the intensive care unit. Looking at her pale face, I suddenly regretted it I wonder if I made a mistake in taking this step.
It's the end of the year in a blink of an eye. This is the season I fear most, because at this time of year, my mother is seriously ill. Every time she stays in the intensive care unit for ten days, one day is almost 1500, which really adds to my situation.
20 16 years, still unable to make ends meet. I sell watermelons to invest in Chinese cabbage, and I sell Chinese cabbage to treat the elderly. All the year round, my family has never added a trace of cloth. I owe almost 320 thousand this year.
5. Is there anything more difficult in life?
20 17 years, I am calmer than before, and I have learned to calm down and think about everything before making a decision.
Watermelon production is very high this year. At that time, the melon merchants came to the field to collect melons, and the big trucks stopped in the field. I pick my own melons, load my own cars, and put them neatly, 3-5 tons, which is my limit. From morning till night, eat watermelon when you are thirsty and hungry. In my daughter's words, the sun burned you to black charcoal.
I gritted my teeth and believed that I would succeed this time. Sure enough, the watermelons were sold out, and I also accumulated some reliable customers. I made a small sum of money of almost 90 thousand this time.
At the end of July, when I was going to buy cabbage seeds for the next season, my wife suddenly called me and said that my mother was dying and was admitted to the intensive care unit. When I rushed to the hospital from the ground, I didn't see my mother for the last time. I lost my family for the first time in my life, but when I accomplished nothing, my mother came here not far from Wan Li. She felt sorry for me and didn't even want to eat a decent meal. This is something I can't forgive myself.
Because of the hot weather, my relatives here and I decided to cremate my mother first and leave the ashes in the funeral home. It was forced. I had no choice.
When my mother's ashes were placed in the funeral home, my wife and I worked in tears for the first time, because we didn't dare to miss the time of planting cabbage. On that day, we both cried in the field and vowed to make money, live a good life and love our family. ...
At this time, I probably owe 400 thousand. Sometimes numbers are just a bunch of numbers, sometimes bills, sometimes a drop of blood and sweat, and sometimes a dead face. ...
The unbearable weight of life is the last straw to crush a camel.
20 18 Before the Spring Festival, my wife and I discussed that 50,000 yuan for selling cabbage should be returned to the loan sharks first, and we still owe about 350,000 yuan to the banks and relatives.
As the New Year approaches in China, everyone is busy buying necessities. The three-year-old daughter eagerly said that she wanted to eat Pippi shrimp, and her wife coaxed her. I said no matter how hard it is, son. Let's buy a catty. My wife stubbornly refused to buy it. We won't know until we get back. At this time, our family of six are all around 70 yuan. ...
My wife secretly lent money to my sister, but she was scolded for not lending a penny. I don't blame them, because we also borrowed the money they earned from working all the year round.
I saw my wife crying secretly. This is probably the hardest Spring Festival for her since she grew up. I have ten million hates for myself, and I shouldn't let my whole family suffer with me.
On New Year's Eve, my wife bought 30 yuan of pork, a bag of flour and Chinese cabbage. Our family stuttered two times in jiaozi and had a chilling Spring Festival.
The more lights there are, the more lonely, guilty and self-blaming I feel. Everyone wants to disappear from this world in the third grade. I am too tired to live.
That afternoon, I took a bottle of paraquat to commit suicide in the field, and I also took a bottle of old wine to escape from the world by mixing it with wine.
Walking out of the house not far away, I saw a familiar background, picking up cartons and water bottles in the garbage, and a lot of tied cartons piled up next to her. ...
I found it when I walked in. It's my wife. She is wearing the green military coat that my father-in-law gave me when she got married. There is a little ice residue in her hair and her gloves are dirty. After seeing me, I was a little embarrassed to say, I just came out to pick it up and I'll be right back. ...
I didn't say anything. A big man completely collapsed and cried.
My wife caught me and advised me that paraquat and wine in my pocket were also found by her. She hit me hard with her fist in fear and anger, and then she began to cry.
On that day, the two of us cried in the wild at MINUS eight degrees and vowed never to commit suicide no matter what happens in this life!
7. getting better and better
20 18 years, my sentence expires. With the support of my wife, we bought our own minivan, farmed when we were busy, and helped others to transport goods to earn some money when we were free. I like doing business, know many dried fruit merchants and cooperate with them to sell them all over the country. During this period, I also made a lot of money.
In 2020, after two years of hard work, my wife and I finally paid off all our foreign debts, totaling about 350 thousand, and the right to use 30 acres of land is still ours. In addition, we bought a house of our own in Aksu and gave ourselves a small home.
During this period, I am most grateful to my wife, a tough, positive, responsible and kind wife. I think if she was as poor as other women, or blamed me blindly, I think I would have drunk paraquat and driven the crane west.
Summary:
After 20 18, study hard all kinds of planting techniques;
Actively report the case to the local police station and obey the local management policies;
If you have something to ask the government for help, you can find a bank loan according to the process and not deal with usury;
Discuss everything with your family and don't be exclusive;
Know how to be grateful and learn to be grateful.