I read it twice and always wanted to write about my feelings, but until now I can’t remember what the title is or what I want to write.
To borrow a sentence from the author: Life is like Dreams, let us rest on the moon.
"Do what you want to do most, live the life you want to live, and be at peace with yourself. How can you call it disrespectful to yourself? Be a famous surgeon, earn 10,000 pounds a year, and marry a beautiful woman. Wife, success? I think it depends on how you view the meaning of life."
What is the moon and sixpence?
The author represents the moon as the ideal. The moon hangs high in the sky. We are ethereal things that cannot be touched. The ideal is the soul that we long for but cannot reach. It cannot be said that without ideals there would be nothing. Soul, but I can't think of anything else that can replace the ideal except the two words "soul". It is inevitable that there will be a trace of happiness and sadness. I am lucky that the ideal is so difficult that I can't have it. This seems to give me a reasonable and confident Excuse, sadness is what is the meaning of my coming to this world, what is the thing that supports my life, even what I want, what is it that makes me dream about, what is the thing that I have to do even if I give up everything, not to make a living , just to satisfy my own soul.
The author of Six Pence (equivalent to sixty cents of RMB) represents reality. Reality is to make a living. Reality is that everything you do is to make money and make a living. Reality is formed by the combination and intersection of family affection, love, friendship and many other things. It is a huge net with no hierarchy or logic that no one can get out of.
The protagonist gave up his originally enviable happy life, changed his mind overnight, and left for a foreign country. It would be better to say that he was tortured and was about to suffocate, so in order to pursue his ideals, in order not to Tortured, he must leave, otherwise he will die, a meaningless death. His pursuit is very simple. He just wants to paint. Painting can express his heart and express his desires. He has no painting skills. He learned it, but he doesn't like it and others look down on him. The colors are messy, and there is even no such color in the world. The brush is arbitrary and there is no skill at all. This is his painting. The author said that his painting is scary. What he wants to express is terrible desire, the cycle of life and death, or the intangible. The hand will pull you into an abyss or an endless tunnel. He is single-minded. Pursuing an ideal and sacrificing oneself in order to realize it, many people can do this, but he can even sacrifice others. He is disgusting. In order to satisfy his sexual desire, he did not hesitate to destroy his good friend's family. His violent passion, body and mind occupied by desire, he hates this sexual instinct, but he can only release it to be free. For him, this natural desire is too vulgar compared with artistic creation. He has no interest in life, is indifferent to money, and is even more dismissive of fame. We don't need to praise him, because there is no temptation or compromise in his world. He has been looking for his own destination - the destination of his soul.
In modern society, it’s all about “I want to make a living.” There is a saying on the Internet that “make a living before finding love”, which directly hits our generation. What kind of life do we want—a house, a car, savings, and a stable and high-paying job—this is the standard answer for our success in making a living. Little do we know that what we have to pay for this livelihood is a loan that we have to repay for the rest of our lives. Machines cannot malfunction, otherwise, our lives will be a mess. We grew up step by step, some were forced to grow up early, and we were all kicked out of the safe haven of school. Slowly, we met those friends who got off the bus early, and joined them on the big carousel that was about to become numb. We We will proudly tell them our ideals, and they will use words such as "Come on, I believe in you" to deal with us. Some will even praise you, "You are so cute." Silly you think it is them. There is no passion, no energy, but I secretly cheer myself up, "Today is also a day full of energy." You start to have disagreements with your colleagues and disagree with your boss. Your work is all about trial and error. Every day you repeat the things you were revising yesterday. Finally, you submit it, but it’s not the original thing you originally had. You are slowly being teased to death by this kind of life. You start to seal up your diary to prevent you from seeing your dreams. You start to laugh at yourself. You give up the meaning of work and start to join their livelihood. Road, pursuing material things, facing reality, you find that these are our most common topics. When the wine glasses collide, it is also the time when dreams are broken.
When I was drunk, I thought back on the innocence in other people's eyes. It was all my running wildly with my dreams as my horse.
The protagonist Strickland, in order to pursue painting, went from the comfort of London to the poverty of Paris. He suffered a lot. For his own desire, he did not hesitate to seduce his friend's wife. In the end, after his desire was satisfied, he , he abandoned her again, causing her to choose suicide. It seemed that these tragedies were insignificant to him, and they were even caused by others and had nothing to do with him. He is very cruel and cruel to his family, friends and the lover who loves him wholeheartedly, and is cynicical and arrogant towards everything in the world, but he has an instinctive and irresistible pursuit of art. In the end, he gave up the secular world and pursued the pure land he wanted. He married a wife and had children. He was isolated from the world and created a masterpiece that the world could not see with his own eyes. Because he completed his ideal painting, as he went on After leaving, this masterpiece slowly turned into ashes and dust with him. The world began to reincarnate. The next generation of the world is sprouting. Maybe there will be others who will start to pursue a different world and a new story again. It will also start soon.