I have been thinking about economic independence for several years since I was admitted to the university. It is said that being a freelance writer is free and profitable. How chic! Unfortunately, writing books for many years has not made me financially independent.
In the past three years, due to the pressure of livelihood, I have been engaged in various occupations. 20 14, went to Shanghai, Nanjing and Zhengzhou. During my stay in Shanghai, I ran out of ammunition because I didn't find an internship unit and we were seriously lacking in work experience. When I was about to sleep on the street, Grandpa Zuo and I found an intermediary company and paid 300 yuan each. Finally, we were cheated by the intermediary to an electronics factory in Nanjing. ...
In the factory, we work overtime day and night and do mechanical work. Night shift is not allowed to rest and ask for leave for two weeks in a row. When working on the night shift, people often faint ... the first time I worked on the night shift, I was burned all over, and my leave was not approved. If you don't go to work for one day, you will be treated as absenteeism and deducted three days' salary.
It is an electronics factory that has no humanity and does not treat people as human beings. The garbage glutinous rice (pseudonym) mobile phone they made is as garbage as their factory, and it is hot enough to cook eggs with mobile phones.
I watched the people around me escape one by one Today he left, tomorrow he will come and we will leave. Tomorrow another group of people will be cheated, from all over the country. Like a group of pigs, we were sent to the car by an intermediary company like a butcher and then transported to an electronics factory like a slaughterhouse. I just stepped into the society. When I stayed up day after day until I died, when I was doing mechanical work day after day, I realized the hardships and helplessness of life for the first time. Resignation is a problem. Who resigned, can't get a penny, they just don't recognize it. Those intermediary companies should really be chopped to pieces and die.
Then, uncle Zuo and I broke up in Nanjing and went our separate ways. I went to Zhengzhou as a community security guard for 10 days, and then as a bank security guard for 40 days ... 20 1 410 June, when I was working in a bank, something happened that I will never forget:
After work, I called the vice president and told her what happened. She didn't say a word, and then she always looked contemptuous when she saw me.
At that time, I just entered the society and looked very immature. I am a child devastated by society. Until now, I still clearly remember the address of that bank, a letter bank in Zhengdong New District, Zhengzhou City, Henan Province;
Until now, I still clearly remember the appearance of the security guard (monitor). His name is Yu Shijie. He often steals high-end gifts from bank warehouses and then takes them out for money. He is from Pingdingshan, Henan Province, and has two sons. Three years have passed, I wonder if he is still alive, and I wonder if he is childless now?
Then, in 20 15, I graduated from university and stayed in Beijing for two years. In the past two years, I have compiled a book about the story of drifting north ... Now, I have graduated from college for two years, and the two years of drifting north are over, but I have not made any money. I can only say that I have tried my best and I can't save any money no matter how frugal I am.
The high consumption and low salary in Beijing is one of the important reasons why I left Beijing. The rent is more than one month 1000, the bus fare is 10 per day, and a meal at the gate of the company is 10 per day. In winter, you must get up early to cook, and then take your meal to the subway. ...
My last job in Beijing was an editor with a monthly salary of 5000 yuan. Apart from rent and meals, there is hardly any money left every month. Poor enough to get sick, Beijing is too expensive to see a doctor, and a cold and fever costs at least several hundred yuan. ...
In Beijing, I'm fed up with life where I can't save money no matter how hard I try. The fog is heavy, but I can't see any hope of life.
20 17 in the middle of March, I decided to leave Beijing. After leaving Beijing, I went to Suzhou to make a living in July. I want to leave that office where I work from five to nine, eat and die, and the salary is very low. I want to do some marketing work. I think it should make more money. ...
I think it's too simple. My job puzzles me again. I stayed in Suzhou for 20 days and didn't find a suitable job. I don't know what to do after my industry and occupation change at the same time. Suzhou is too hot, much hotter than I expected. I don't like Suzhou anymore. I can't breathe at 40 degrees. If there is no air conditioning indoors, it is not suitable for human habitation.
Summer in the south is not just hot. ...
I searched for a few days in Pingjiang District, but I couldn't find a suitable house to rent. Most of them are vacant rooms on the third floor. I didn't rent them out because the room was too hot and there was no air conditioning.
I lived in my cousin's house for five days, and four people were crowded into a room. I think I must have caused them a lot of trouble.
I want to try sales, but I don't know what kind of business I'm in. I don't know what to do. I have been to the talent market four times and interviewed in several companies, but I still don't know what to do. There seems to be no good job or suitable job.
This is not the way. At this rate, I can't find a job in Suzhou for another year.
I don't know what to do, so go home. ...
After 20 days, I went back to my hometown from Suzhou and stayed in Suzhou for 20 days. I was sweating all over and returned in vain. ...
When I got home, I was embarrassed to see my family. I am so proud that I hate the contemptuous eyes of some villagers who look down on me.
I left Beijing, moved to Jiangnan, and returned to my hometown from Jiangnan. As a college student, I was so down and out, but I couldn't go home, right?
At four o'clock in the morning, I arrived at the train station in my hometown from Suzhou. I called the village chief (a high school classmate) and asked him to meet me at the railway station.
Half an hour later, he drove me to his house, and the village head took me to find a job. I told him I didn't know what to do. After two years in the office, I don't want to be an office anymore. It seems that I have no choice but to sell?
In the high temperature of more than 30 degrees, the village chief drove me to a far-away place for an interview. ...
I have never done any of the three major sales industries in China, selling houses, cars and insurance. It's the same for me, so I'll try to sell the house.
In the last two years, the house at home is relatively easy to sell, and the house price has "advanced by leaps and bounds". After the government demolished the houses of ordinary people, it did not compensate the existing houses, and the so-called auction house may not be handed over to the relocated households.
Those whose houses were demolished were homeless, so they had to take out a loan to buy a house. No, there must be a place to live at home, right?
Demolition is also one of the many reasons for rising house prices, right? House prices in my hometown have gone up sharply. In less than a year, a square meter is more than 1000 yuan, and in the past two years, the average square meter has increased by more than 2,000 yuan.
Demolition in other places has made local people rich, but demolition in my hometown is getting poorer and poorer. ...
Throughout the country, I'm afraid only Beijing's demolition is the most humane and reasonable, right? Lose money first, then pay the house. Some relocated households eat a lot. Some of them are lazy and live on rent, but they are shamelessly complacent about it. When they talk about the relocated households, they always feel that they are awesome. ...
I can't help it I can't blame the government for my hard life. People are favored by heaven.
In the car, I discussed with the village chief what I should do. I don't have much choice. I can only sell a few kinds, or I can try to sell a house. The village chief thinks it's good. The house in my hometown is very easy to sell, and the commission is not small. He suggested that I try to do sales first, and then I can't do manual work. Anyway, don't expect my education to change my destiny.
I called Lao Zhao and asked if their company was still hiring. He works in a real estate company. It is said that he has been there for two years and has been living well.
I came to their company according to Lao Zhao's instructions.
After a while, Lao Zhao called the personnel department and asked if anyone else was needed.
I went to the third floor to find their personnel interview, and the personnel asked me to go back and wait for the notice, saying that I would be informed to attend the training on Wednesday, and I would be trained for one week without pay.
After the interview, the village chief drove me to Zhongyuan Automobile City. I found a place to spend the summer and he went to work.
I found a place to eat a meal and visited the examination room of Division 4. The room to be tested is packed, and the indoor temperature is as high as 30 degrees. They sat in the room, sweating and fidgeting. They are waiting for the exam.
Not long ago, I sat here like them, waiting for the exam. It took me two months to get my driver's license I also spent a lot of money. Subject 2, subject 3, a detail may be deducted 100. If you fail, you have to wait ten days to retake the exam, and you have to pay the retake fee.
I still don't understand why some provinces and cities are so strict in driving test. Who the fuck goes to the warehouse several times and doesn't go back? The examination requirements must be filled in at one time, otherwise you will fail. If you need ordinary people to pay for the make-up exam, just say no. Just pay a few hundred dollars before the exam. Why bother others? If a department is short of money, or needs to donate money to foreigners, or ask people for money in disguise, it won't be so annoying, will it?
Don't expect the second person to sympathize with you except yourself. Ordinary people have to rely on themselves.
In the second year of the exam, I saw a woman crying on the steering wheel. She was taken down from the car by three instructors. There is also a big brother in his forties who failed two subjects. In full view, he slapped himself more than a dozen times. ...
The make-up fee paid by those who fail the exam every year is a considerable sum of money, which will definitely not be used on ordinary people. When can the people of China live a comfortable life, when can they stop leaving their homes for life, and when can they wait until the day of free medical care? ...
I walked around the examination room with half a bottle of water and decided to go home. I have been in Suzhou for 20 days. My mother calls me almost every day to ask if I have found a job. Go home if you can't find a job. It's too hot in July to find a job ...
I got on the bus home. After getting off the bus, in order to avoid the strange eyes of some villagers, I decided to walk home from the field path. I don't want to go this street. There are many people in the street.
The corn in the field has grown taller, which is completely different from the height before I left. In 20 days, they grew taller. For 20 days, I not only didn't make any money, but also didn't find a job. For 20 days, I hardly had a good sleep, lived a wandering life, had a bad rest and didn't have enough to eat.
When I can't sleep in another country, I want to go home and have a good sleep. For three years, I have had enough of the vagrancy brought by unemployment. ...
Night, silent, I fell on the bed, enjoying the long-lost sleep.
Home is a warm harbor. When we are tired, we can rely on her. ...
Two days after returning to China, the staff of the real estate company called me and asked me to attend a seven-day unpaid training.
I trained for several days on the third floor, reciting corporate culture and learning sales skills every day. To put it bluntly, I try my best to fool others and drag them to the sales office (visit).
In those days, I trained during the day, from 8 am to 6 pm, and then I quickly found a house to live after training. The house near the company is too expensive, about 600 yuan in January, and the rent is paid in half a year or one year.
The rent in my hometown is three times more expensive than before, and the way to pay rent is more "bandit".
As mentioned earlier, in the last two years, many houses in urban areas have been demolished and many people have become homeless. They have to rent and buy houses. ...
Lao Meng and I found two villages, but we couldn't find a suitable place to live. A farmer brother who doesn't look like a good man or talk like a good man said, "Pay the deposit first, 300 yuan, and I'll pay you back when I check out ..."
When I saw his virtue, I was too lazy to talk to him. I said indifferently. Do we wage earners feel bullied, or do we feel arrogant in our own homes? I despised him and turned away. ...
What is even more ridiculous is that there is a farmhouse on the first floor, and there is no glass in the window, let alone security window. There are rubbish piles near the window. I knew at a glance that it was a dangerous building built to cope with demolition. The old woman asked me how much rent I would pay every month. I asked her how to pay the rent. She said she would pay at least half a year, and she wouldn't rent every month.
If she hadn't been too old to live for a few days, I would have wanted to say hello to her family. Isn't this fishing in troubled waters? This is my hometown. How did the locals become so gold-worshipping? Did the demolition make them like this?
Facts have proved that science and technology are progressing and the quality of the people is deteriorating by leaps and bounds. They want nothing but money.
The people of China are tired. I sympathize with them and I understand them. ...
It took me two days to find a landlady who is not a bandit. She checked in at the end of July and stayed for a few days, but she didn't come to urge the rent.
Then I called her and asked her to collect the rent. After she came, I quickly gave her 200 yuan. She said something that moved me very much. She said, "I'll give you rent in August ..."
After several days of training, I gradually learned about the real estate industry. I am full of confidence in this job and look forward to the upcoming unknown challenges.
Then I followed the team for two days, and the foreman was in charge of me. What he said to me the most was "Ask more, talk more, talk more".
Seeing that I am embarrassed to intercept a stranger, he will come up to me and point to the passerby in a hurry and say, "See? Everyone is a pile of money. Go and ask. There is always a person who wants to buy a house. If you ask, there may not be hope. If you don't ask, there will certainly be no hope ... "
The working hours are from 8 am to 9 pm, and our location is near Shangzi, where we will explore most of the time. At 9 o'clock in the evening, we will go back to the unit to sort out our work. If you work overtime, you can't leave after nine o'clock, and it is unknown whether you can take a day off a week.
Speaking of sales, if our recent college graduates don't do this major, many people will habitually choose to do sales. Sales make money quickly, the threshold is low, and no work experience is needed. Therefore, we often choose to do sales if we have no background at home.
My college classmate Lao Shu is doing real estate sales in a well-known real estate company in Beijing. I asked him how the market was. He mumbled a lot on the phone. He said: "The company didn't sign a contract with us. It has the right to let us work overtime for free. It says we won't rest unless we rest. To put it bluntly, it can squeeze us as much as it wants, and the law can't take it because there is no contract between us and it. We are just their part-time staff. It uses us to work hard for it, let us go to subway stations, supermarkets, railway stations, streets and other crowded places to attract customers, and we use this platform to earn high commissions ... "
"It's hard to say whether you can earn a high commission. Dozens of pioneers may not be able to sell two houses in a month. There are millions of villas with sea view in Beijing. Who did they sell it to? Once a day, three times a month, if the house can't be sold, the basic salary will be deducted by half. The rent in Beijing is expensive, and it is barely enough to rent a house after deducting the basic salary. How did I find out that I came to Beijing to work not only for the company, but also for the black landlord? Li, a driver in our team, said that if you can't sell a house in a month, the basic salary will definitely be fined almost, and you have no money to earn, and you have to work in the street for more than ten hours every day. What's the difference between this and beggars? "
"If we are bullied by our colleagues at work, or beaten, or hit by a car at the traffic lights, the company will not stand up for us and will not care about our lives ..."
Old Shu's complaints are deafening me. I said, what the fuck are you?
Old Shu mumbled something again. He said, "If you can sell the house, you can live a good life. If you can't sell it, you will be as poor as a beggar. You think soliciting in the street will be despised by others. Won't his (her) contemptuous eyes make you feel ashamed? Especially those women who are difficult for men to see at a glance. Not only can you not lose face, but you will also be despised by others. Ah, it's hot in summer and cold in winter, so you can't make money. Is it like a beggar ... "
After listening to him muttering for a long time, my ears turned red when my mobile phone was hot. I said, "Shut up and stop mumbling."
Lao Shu's last sentence hit me where it hurts. He said, "Son, it has been two years since I graduated. I am alive, not alive. Have you lost your temper because of life? "
After hanging up the phone, I was in a daze for a long time with the Apple mobile phone I bought when I was drifting north.
It's been two years, and our college students who graduated from the 20th/KLOC-0th/5th class have entered the society for two years. How have you been these two years? Is everything going well?
I didn't get what I wanted, but almost everything I didn't want came. The salary of working in an office is so low that I can hardly do other jobs and have no work experience.
I have asked myself countless times what more than ten years of study have brought me. ...
I asked myself, have you lost your temper because of life?
A few days ago, the company had a holiday, and all the pioneers cheered excitedly, so I took the opportunity to go home.
That morning, I got up at six o'clock, and I was always excited to go home. I am a homesick person. No matter whether my family is rich or poor, my family is the place where I was born and raised. Although there were not many good people in the village for a long time, my parents are still alive and I miss them very much.
It rained the day I got home. After I got off the bus, my father came to pick me up on a tricycle. He parked his car on the side of the road and went to a nearby restaurant to spend 50 yuan to buy two meat dishes. ...
At dinner, I told my parents that my job had been settled. I like running around, and I'm fed up with the nine-to-five life. It is not necessarily a bad thing to experience the outdoor wind and sun. I am a restless person. Being a salesman is a very training job. I've always wanted to try and try the cruelty of sales. Whether I can make money or not seems less important. Two years after graduation, I have tried my best, but I still can't make any money.
I don't know what I want to do. After all, it is a good thing to dare to try. The result is not important, but the process is important.
People who don't try and never know whether they are suitable for a certain profession, and those who want to try and dare not try are all cowards. It is wise to know that they are not suitable for giving up early after trying. ...
It passes quickly at home, and a day's holiday is too short. I had to go back to the city that afternoon and go to work at eight the next day.
In the afternoon, I suddenly didn't want to go. I thought the rented place was too hot, and I was afraid of insomnia.
Thinking of the hardships of work, running all over the street and being despised by others;
I want to work so long and pay so much time. Can you finally sell the house and make money? The real estate market is very depressed at present.
I realize that the price of time is the greatest sacrifice. It is said that in recent months, the sales office has been very depressed. Some people can't open a bill for months, and the house price is too expensive. How many people buy a house? Probably no one will ask 1000 people. If there are no customers and no achievements, the efforts will be in vain. Doing this business requires luck, commission and risk.
It suddenly occurred to me that I haven't made any money since I graduated two years ago. ...
I got it. ...
I thought about the cruelty of my life and the setbacks I experienced in the past two years. ...
Thinking of this, I no longer have the passion and fighting spirit when I drifted north. I know that life is cruel everywhere, and no words can describe the cruelty of life.
I didn't leave that afternoon I am tired. I hate going to work and the restrictions it brings me. I just want to sleep at home.
I asked the company for a day off, and the next afternoon, I reluctantly went to work.
Before I left, I complained to my mother that I had hardly had a smooth life for more than 20 years, and I didn't go to school smoothly. I had an operation at the age of 65,438+08. During my college years, my spleen and stomach were weak and cold to 65,438+065,438+00 kg, and I lost sleep at night. Two years after graduation, my work was not smooth, and I experienced unemployment, employment, unemployment ... For more than 20 years, I was slowly tempered by life. ...
You need to ride a bike to go to work, and your residence is a distance from your work place. Considering that cycling is not allowed on the bus, I asked my father to drive me to the city, and he went to check the car by the way.
On the road, while driving, my father said to Wen Jun in the co-pilot: "Everything I do is not smooth, and all the unlucky things make me unbearable. No one has had a rough life ... "
I sat in the back seat and looked at him without saying a word. I looked at his vicissitudes and looked at his tired eyes. He is no longer young, and he is completely different from what I remember in my childhood.
Looking at my father in front of me, I feel inexplicable pain in my heart. In the past two years, I have been willing to make money, but I can't. The depreciation of undergraduate education makes it difficult to find employment. I have tried my best, and no matter how hard I try, I can't make money.
I occasionally complain about unfairness. Why did my school give us the graduation homework we promised when I 17 graduated?
I wonder if dad knows how much I want to lighten his burden. As the eldest son of my family, I have been under increasing pressure these years. ...
I can't remember when my father gained weight, let alone imagine how much he has suffered for more than forty years. He did all kinds of farm work since he was a child, and his grandparents preferred his uncles and aunts. They haven't been in his heart since his father got married. ...
For 26 years, my father has paid too much for this family. He raised three sons, each of whom was fattened for nothing, and he also fed his son milk powder when he was a child. Few families in the village are willing to raise their children with milk powder. My family has never been rich, but my father left us no money. ...
In recent years, with the growth of age, the desire to make money has become stronger and stronger. I want to work harder, earn more money and let my parents live comfortably for the rest of their lives. Their first half of life was too rough and tired, and they were exhausted. ...
Two years after graduation, I have been working with a bachelor's degree, but I have hit a wall everywhere. I am afraid of getting married because I have no money and my salary is very low.
Two years after graduation, I am old, watching my former primary school classmates get along well, and then watching myself accomplish nothing, and I can't make money no matter how hard I work;
Two years after graduation, not only did I not get the comfortable and high-paying job I expected when I was studying;
After two years of graduation, I not only failed to live the ideal life I expected, but also suffered from the contemptuous eyes of the villagers after returning to my hometown;
Two years after graduation ...
Two years after graduation, I was penniless, with nothing but complaints and the age of my junior year. ...
It has been two years since graduation. Faced with expensive garage, expensive marriage, expensive milk powder for raising children, high prices and low wages. ...
Two years after graduation, I gradually felt the hardships and helplessness of life. ...
I don't know when it started, because of the pressure of livelihood, I was slowly flattened by life, only sighing and powerlessness. ...
We were not born in the so-called honey pot after 90. Being born in a honeypot refers to the rich second generation, not all born after 90. ...
Are we old after 90? After studying hard for more than ten years, I finally graduated with unemployment and high prices. ...
These all say that the post-90 s are worthless? I occasionally feel deeply powerless about all this!
In any case, we should be full of hope for life. Only in this way can we live a personal life. ...
Decades of life are just fleeting. If you can't put on airs, then you can play around, and life should be like this, free and easy, like a carefree madman ...