Genesis reminds me of God first. Zhang Ailing's novel Genesis has appeared "three stories in the sun" many times, and I always feel a little discordant. Printed on yellowed photos, traveling through the old times, two different stories of two women in two times came from Three Stories of Yangguan. "A ditty, repeated over and over again, is worrying …" Mutual help should create its own century step by step; Wei Zi is determined to be a saint and create a century of his own.
In the old society, women were masters of their own destiny, not to mention love. Huzhu was born in a dilapidated big family, and even she had to rely on her grandmother to pawn her dowry to make a living, but the face of the big family could not be lost. It is shameful for women to go out to work. Zhu Zhu works in a drugstore run by foreigners, and goes to work secretly every day. The whole family knows but pretends not to know, especially in front of her grandmother Wei Zi. 19 years old Huzhu grew up in a big family without love and warmth. At work, she met Mao Yaoqiu who pursued her. A little warmth outside made her reluctant to give up, even though she knew there was no future. "Love is hot, but being loved is light." Mutual help is so cold that even a little temperature can make her glow. "The warm emptiness" and "Out of the sunshine in the west" are even bottomless abyss, or the future of Wan Li.
Zhu Zhu wants to create her century. Zhang Ailing's writing style is very graphic, just as she is familiar with painting and music. This picture is like dusk in the sunset, and the light sinks down bit by bit. It is also like the sad and melancholy tone of "Three Stories of Yangguan", which is so incongruous with the age of 19. "A cane chair in the pharmacy, dragged aside, leaned against the soap box, the armrest of the cane chair, and the sun shone its shadow on the wooden box. The shadow of the curved rattan is like three arched doors, like a passage. There are other branches with straight shadows beside them, like fences. Although you can't see the willows, you can imagine that there are two half-withered willow trees in the scenery of the border town, and even this green past is gone. How many relatives can there be in the world after two steps? " All mutual help can get is a shadow of the sun. The faint light made her want to "go through customs", but she couldn't see the green willows. How many relatives will miss, how much warmth will wait? So, Zhu Zhu reluctantly accepted Mao Yaoqiu. However, their love can't walk in the sun. Zhu Zhu dare not tell her elders, but only dare to share the joy and anxiety of love with her sister. In fact, my parents and grandmother both know that they are eager for her to climb into a rich family, but they can't tell each other. It's hard for us to understand now. Women from wealthy families may not finish high school, let alone go to college and fall in love freely. It's an extravagant hope. There are few women like Zhang Ailing and Lin. Like Xiao Hong, they fled their families in order to fight for the freedom of reading and falling in love. We often see it in literary works. I'm afraid the truth is just like the reason why Zhu Zhu's grandmother Wei Zi likes watching movies and Zhu Zhu likes reading novels. A talented woman and a beautiful woman, a few months ago, all lovers shall have Jill, and Zhang Henshui's novels are so unforgettable and thrilling. Zhang Ailing said that for women, love means being loved. However, at this point, mutual help is hard to be loved. "I don't know why, it's like leaving him all the time." I always feel that I will break up soon. When she was a child, she had a phonograph movie and often listened to it seven or eight times in a row. It was a guqin solo "Three Stories of Yangguan", a small tune that was repeated repeatedly, but made her deeply concerned ... "Mao Yaoqiu invited Hu Zhu to his house to listen to records, which could have interpreted a beautiful love story and painted a touching picture of love. Zhang Ailing has no sympathy for her characters. " Pearl sat close to the phonograph, as if she were in it. Waltz tunes, swaying out, loudly shocking, thrilling, almost unbearable, emotional destruction. ... brilliant record is a bit dim, just like a light glass of wine ... loud music is just a spin, and there is a dark excitement, which is simply not like this world. Zhang Ailing mentioned "Three Stories of Yangguan" many times in her book. This farewell song reflects Zhu Zhu's mood and bid farewell to her pale, dull and lifeless life, hoping to create a new century full of love and warmth. However, can mutual help really say goodbye to her past? In the face of Mao Yaoqiu's frivolity, Zhu Zhu slapped her and cut off this relationship with her own hands. It seems like a feat and a desolate gesture, but it can't create her century.
Wei Zi, a grandmother who helped each other, was born in a prominent family. It is said that Zhang Ailing wrote it according to her grandparents and aunt. Father is a prominent figure and loves his daughter, but he marries her rashly. Honor and reputation are more important than loving your daughter. When Eight-Nation Alliance invaded, Wei Zi ran away with her old aunt, and her father left a note. If there are soldiers and bandits, there will always be a river or a well nearby. First of all, she was pushed down. "I can't let her leave my people alive!" It is not difficult to understand that the father casually betrothed his daughter to others. Wei Zi married a bum who was eight years younger than herself, so she had to worry about everything by herself. She sells land and houses, buys and sells stocks and foreign exchange, and does housework. Finally, she had to pawn her wedding dress to help the whole family live, so that she could have a good life. This is her life. She is resentful and unwilling, and only seeks comfort in plays and novels. The joys and sorrows in the play, the love and crying in the novel have no real life. Of course, Wei Zi, a beautiful woman with both talent and beauty, is eager for love. But according to parents' orders and matchmakers' words, marriage depends on emotion, right or wrong is fate, and love only exists in books and plays. When I first married my husband's family, Wei Zi was determined to become a saint and make a name for herself, which was her lifelong career. However, when things changed, she met an unworthy husband, her disappointing son, her ignorant daughter-in-law and even her descendants abandoned her. Without the excitement and warmth of a big family, I only see the selfishness and indifference between husband and wife, mother and child, mother-in-law and grandparents, and the mouths that want to eat. At the end of the story, Wei Zi opened the fairy tale The Fisherman and the Goldfish. Goldfish can only make people enjoy romantic love and happy life in their dreams. How do they satisfy people's greed and wake up from their dreams? Fishermen still have to face a broken family. Wei Zi listened to the organ playing "Three Layers of Yangguan". If she changed the key, she couldn't create her own century.
God created our century, and we also created our own century, seeking some meaning from unintentional meaning. From Zhang Ailing's words, we can't see a thrilling love story, let alone a happy ending. No matter how beautiful the color is, it will darken and fade on a desolate background. Just like the tune of Three Chapters of Yangguan, we are concerned step by step, but we leave Yangguan for no reason.