Although it is "as I wished", there is some helplessness in it. I was able to get into the Chinese language program, which was the best choice, but also the only choice for me.

When I was in the first or second grade of elementary school, I had a colorful copy of Tang Dynasty. At that time, I was still stuck in the stage of "only recognize pinyin but not words", although almost every day, but only as a picture book to see, and then take the pen to describe the illustrations, only for the fun of drawing. In the end, it was not a waste of two or three years of flipping through the book, and I still remembered a few poems. The first thing that I did was to get in touch with the "literature".

Although there is such a little beginning, but at that time I was focusing on play, did not "renewed vigor".

Until the language teacher in high school, Mr. Zhang taught us a concept called "text perception", which is the so-called "can feel a paragraph of text written well. " I'm not sure if I've ever been in a position where I've had a chance to get in touch with literature, but I'm sure I've had a chance to get in touch with literature.

At first, I read "Song Lyrics 300" and Shanghai Ancient Books Publishing House's "Dictionary of Ancient Writings Appreciation", and then I gradually came into contact with more genres and works. Slowly, he also began to "follow the gourd", try to write something, although it is difficult to reach the hall of elegance, not into the eyes of connoisseurs, but the progress is real visible to themselves.

Later, I went to college. I sadly found a problem: many times, the teacher before giving examples of literary works have to ask us to read did not read. But in my case, the question of "read or not read" became "heard or not heard". Compared to my classmates, I was "a lone voice in the middle of it all, with a great sense of admiration". Since the obstacle of knowledge has limited my listening to the class, then "the head to cure the headache", I began to gradually come into contact with some modern and contemporary literature, novels, poems, essays, and some humanities and social sciences books. I've been practicing a lot, and I've been studying to write something.

Over the years, I have always remembered the story of Einstein's little bench. Einstein made a small bench, the teacher said: there is a worse bench surface than this in the world? Einstein answered yes, and then took out the two benches he had made earlier. So I, too, am "in the mood" to write something I call "The Bench Book". Of course, I don't have the idea of publishing it, but just for myself, so that I can see my own progress. As Hemingway said:

It is not noble to be better than others, but to be better than one's past self.

Then I thought that since I was always researching and writing things, why not make some extra money from words by the way? Then I went to a lot of platforms to see how and what those articles with higher click-through rates were written. The summary is as follows

1. There are "children's love" "gossip" class:

"This is a scum man" "that is a scum woman", "so-and-so divorced or broke up or fell out of love" "ex-guy or girlfriend balabala......"

2 The "dry goods teaching" category:

(This needs a skill)

3. "Knowledge interpretation" category:

Need a lot of reading, knowledge reserves and their own thoughts and insights, and to say that the

4. Finally, there is a large category, on the write "sex"

This type of article especially to the beginning of the "xx went to bed, pregnant, abortion," not the beginning, for the theme, for the core, and then with several

These articles are often written with the theme of "xx sleeping, pregnancy, abortion" as the core, and then accompanied by a few "sexy pictures", and then the number of readers tends to break through a thousand or more than 10,000 (clicks on the profound revelation of human nature)

After summarizing the situation, I asked myself:

Can I write these things out?

After summarizing, I asked myself:

Can I write this?

So with the exception of 2 and 3, are they good?

I don't think so.

But people write those things to make money, compared to the things I want to write, the things I can write are not read, not popular, the so-called "bullshit" is just like that, right?

Not to write these things, you can also find some of the essay platform to contribute to some of the literary strong article. After understanding a lot of platforms, I found that they want articles are required to "eulogize the great times", "praise the great motherland", "praise the man of the hour" type, which reminds me of There is a kind of poetry called "Lao Gan style", is a kind of promotion of "red" theme. And this kind of singing the praises of the subject matter is generally well versed in the routine and the world old party members and cadres, so called "old cadres body". If you want me to write this kind of bar ...... and make a difficult face ......

Then there is still one possibility left, write a novel or write a book. Harm, but now the level is not enough. Want to take the road of literature is not simple, as ordinary people to this as a side business to get a little okay. At the beginning of the year I thought about how to write a good work, thinking about it, I think the most fundamental point is to learn to " observe life ". All literary creation is rooted in real life and the objective world. After understanding this point, I often go to observe, pay attention to the things around me, will explore some ordinary "commonplace" phenomenon of the essence of the reason. This gives me a feeling of "opening the door to a new world".

In fact, before I chose this major, I thought, "What can I do with this Chinese International Education major?

In fact, before I chose this program, I thought about what I could do with this Chinese International Education program. I thought about it, but I couldn't break through the existing cognitive level

The feckless man is a scoundrel. Perhaps in the end found: after learning this profession out, with the ordinary people no difference, perhaps others will also be a little survival skills, livelihood, and the Chinese profession ...... difficult to say ......

Outsiders often say: Eh you learn Chinese, the literary style certainly I'm not sure if you're going to be able to do that. Come write a couplet, write a poem, write an essay, write a novel, write a xxx ......

? At this point I just want to ......

Sorry, the Chinese major is not to train writers, the Chinese major is not to train writers, the Chinese major is not not not to train writers.

Layman:So what exactly does a Chinese major study? I don't know what else to do if I don't write.

The time has come to test my understanding of the Chinese language program ......

I think that the Chinese language program is a systematic discipline, just like many science and engineering programs. First of all, memorize a lot of things this is not to mention; secondly, there is a very important point, that is, to learn the theoretical system of literature, for this to involve aesthetics, philosophy, psychology, sociology, history, psychoanalysis, humanism, structuralism, deconstructivism and other kinds of ism; and then all kinds of literary history; and finally also to ...... This will be said later! ......

In addition, as of now I have no identification with Chinese education, I prefer Chinese language, and just want to study and research Chinese purely.

In fact, no matter whether it is a Chinese teaching or a Chinese language, it is a Chinese language major, which is a book-reading major. The most important thing is that if you don't read the book, you won't even understand the lesson. The first thing you need to do is to look at the book and see what it is. To me, it is the so-called:

"Fuck a thousand songs and then know the sound, watch a thousand swords and then recognize the tool"

And I came to see the book in the past six months is the biggest feeling of ......

How to read more and more books?

How do you read more and more books

How do you read more and more books?

Looking at my own list of books like an adolescent teenager in the crazy growth, let me a little grief (manual blood emoji)

Said so much, or back to the core question

After studying Chinese major what is the use?

In fact, if I were to answer now, I would say:

My pessimism also comes from the fact that, according to big data, the Chinese language major has been one of the majors with the highest unemployment rate for two consecutive years. The major is really good at mixing, and in turn really hard to become proficient and sophisticated. If you have never seen what the Chinese students in those double first-class colleges and universities are exposed to and learn, then the gap between them is really unimaginable. This is the first time that I've seen the world's most popular movie, and I'm not sure if I've ever seen the world's most popular movie.

After thinking so much, in fact, there is nothing to think about. The development of a practical approach is the hard truth, better than the past is not enough, more need to recognize the community and others to do. Half a year squatting at home to read thirty books, occasionally observing life to write something, in bilibili to see the teaching of professional courses (not to leave home to enter the classroom of the University of Beijing). So it's all about choosing to enrich yourself as much as possible. If you can plant seeds in the spring, they will naturally bear fruit in the fall.

Let's end with a poem, I really like this one, it feels authentically written.

? To the Chinese Department

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You must be quietly

in one of the oldest buildings in the whole school

writing postcards with a pen

one word at a time while others are sending FMS

You must be carrying steamed buns with squash in your pocket

while others are strolling along the pedestrian street

sitting in the cool north of the mountain <

You must have held class meetings on the lawn

but danced in costume in the classroom

You must have argued about Yin and Yang in a café

but stood in the central square

and wandered

You must have walked through the doors of the university

thinking that you could paint the sky blue

You must have walked through the doors of the university

thinking that you could paint the sky blue

You must have walked through the door

thinking that you could paint the sky blue

All that you had to do was to make the sky blue.

You must have walked into college thinking that you could paint the sky blue

and then enjoy

the sadness of the falling flowers

the passion of the moon over the willows

only to find out during your sophomore year that

in addition to Lin Daiyu and Liu Zongyuan, there are also Sun Simiao and Sigmund Freud

and you went to the library and read all the books in the collection

after reading the preface and the introduction to your favorite book.

So you went to the library and read all the preface and afterword

and then in your junior year

you finally realized that all you could write about, all you wanted to write about, all you could write about

were already in the musty books

So you gritted your teeth and put all your journals and assignments

into the fire

so that by your senior year

you couldn't leave your teacher with anything

and you had to leave the teacher with something.

So you went back to your first year classroom

to listen to the lessons you forgot to listen to:

And you graduated

leaving behind empty bottles of wine

and a belly full of misfits

Others drink to get drunk

but you get drunk to get drunk

Others fall in love for the sake of falling in love.

You're in love for love's sake

Others think you can earn money by studying

You think you can earn money by studying

Others think life is a dream

You think it's a dream of a life

At last

When others would rather sit in their BMWs

and cry for themselves

You can still be in a concert hall

listening to the "The Lovers of Liang"

You suddenly realize that in four years

you have learned nothing

but to

cry for others